FEARLESS.
my organized chaos `
`Gandhi
PREFACE. If you weren’t warned already, I had deleted this post while I was cleaning out my blog. I will try to write everything down again in its rightful timing and order. But yes, this blog is about Square One - the story of how we met.
I met my husband, Pongyue, when I was twelve and he was sixteen. It was a rainy, cold tournament ( I don’t remember which holiday exactly, ) and our families and friends were all gathered under the Lee family tent having fun and conversing in the moments. He was tall and very chubby…had geeky braces, a Rocket’s basketball jersey, shorts, and white Forces. I remember his fobby asian haircut and his chubby smile. :)
With all honesty, I did not think that five years later I’d marry this guy. LOL When I had met him that day at the tournament, I was not even looking for love or attracted to him an any way; I was only twelve and too young for him! :P & + I was there to be with my family and friends and he was there randomly, standing alone at the tent with no one to talk to. I don’t quite remember being introduced to him but my ‘cousins’ (not actually blood related cousins) called him “Uncle” so I considered him some sort of distant family member. I remember as the day went by we had lots of laughs and yet there was only one thing that I couldn’t get right about him. HIS NAME.
Before I left back home I asked him what his name was and he had said, “Friend”. I did not even think about his name in Hmong so I was in confusion until the next time we met and he told me that it was “Friend” as in “Pongyue”. — My husband is and yet isn’t related to me. He is my dad’s older brother’s wife’s younger brother’s wife’s younger brother. I hope yall caught that. :) We only know each other through marriage and if not for the union of my Uncle & Aunt and her younger brother & wife, I would’ve probably never met my husband. ♥
· Meeting each other at a Hmong tournament, isn’t this a classy Hmong Love Story? lol
this ends square one,
The Story of How We Met
(Source: ninaskyye)
:( ! ♥ — I just went over my blog and deleted a ton of things; I `accidentally deleted some VSF posts too. Therefore, I will attempt to post up what I can but they’ll be kept pretty brief. If you’re reading this and don’t know what VSF is,
check to the ← for VOYAGE SANS FIN. Here you’ll find posts about my Hmong marriage / culture, etc. :)
WITH BLESSINGS,
— Madame M
III. Initiation
I haven’t introduced myself properly and I decided that in this part of my 3-Part intro I’m gonna give a little background about myself to initiate my blog. Obviously I won’t go into too much detail in certain areas but just the basics to inform my audience. I think it’ll help others know where I’m coming from. Knowing the social factors can help determine one’s way of life and self. I love Sociology so I guess I wouldn’t be as diverse and open-minded if I didn’t take that class in high school. lol Anyhoooooo ,
T o start off, I’m a Xiong girl :) ♥. I’m currently 19 years old and was born & raised in a middle-class home in Wisconsin. My family is Hmong White and follow “Old School” tradition (non-religious). My parents are still happily married and I have three awesome older brothers. I grew up in the city life, attended a public school outside of the city I lived in, and then eventually my family moved out into the country side. I can say that I have a lot of pride for my family; we have a healthy and strong reputation. I love them all: cousins, aunts, uncles, nieces, nephews, etc. I wouldn’t ask for any other family. And as I write and think about them, I can easily burst into tears. I love and miss them a lot.
At 17, I married into a Hmong Moua family of middle-class, Hmong White, and of Old School tradition. My husband and I are 4 years apart and he’s the baby boy of the family. His generation is very far apart from his older siblings — six years difference (not that bad of a difference actually). I now have two more older brothers and two older sisters in which I have been blessed with nieces and nephews ♥ :) ! Here in our location, we (my parents and my husband and I) live the city life ; a busier one than what I lived back in WI. I’m attending college and working part-time at our family’s Thai restaurant. As far as family is concerned, I love my Hmong Moua family too although we are more spread out from one another ; some of my older siblings are in the Mid West. Living in the East Coast, there isn’t much Hmong people (at least where I’m located). There are definitely cultural and traditional differences of Hmong that I see from both locations.
→ Furthermore , this is just a blueprint of my life ; I’ve lived a normal life , as well as the Hubby. We’re normal people, living normal lives, doing ordinary things. I hope this part helps sets the atmosphere, going to post my first official blog soon. :) * Again, this was out of memory & pretty brief. I don’t want to bore anyone yet, (I probably have.) but I’m a creative and inventive person … Let me know what’s up & hope all is well.
XOXO,
— MOUA
(Source: ninaskyye)
II. INSPIRATION
Some say that writing things down can help one self … but I write because secretly, it’s fun. Not only does it entertain me, it keeps me sane about the known & unknown of the world. Ideas, thoughts, creativity explode in my brain ; and the only way to document such mental behaviors of my mind is to WRITE IT ALL DOWN. The ridiculous thing about this whole writing business is that you can search my room, my book shelves, my purses & bags for any paper, book, journals, etc. and in conclusion … you’ll find pages of nothingness, half-ass`ed scribbles & doodles, lists of random words galore — silly things that will only penetrate the mystery of the seeker’s mind about me. I have incredible memory I guess. You can refer my memory to a blank wall full of sticky notes. Writing helps me dispose and make more space for sticky notes. lol. For me I guess writing can be a bit therapeutic ; like the rapper who raps his heart out , or the poet who speaks, freeing himself. Writing is an inspiration, why am I an engineer? ;) lol.
* laughs — I think I’m at the point in my life where I’m at peace with the rest of the world , but in mines , I have nothing but an indestructible urge to expand my knowledge, experiences, and self. Because I’m weird & I analyze life anally , I’ve basically constructed a timeline in my mind of where my life is headed. I’m an ambitious one really & for a (Hmong) girl, I’ve got too much pride to give in to the rest of the world. In this moment of my life, I’m listening. I’m a Nyab (wife / daughter-in-law). There is no other moment to germinate than the moment I’m in now. All I take in as I’m growing, is what helps determine how I develop, & what I become is a reflection of all the above.
A third inspiration I find to write / post on Tumblr is my sister: msrecessionista. The one female relationship that I didn’t want to lose when I got married. Although I barely speak to her now-a-days , the beautiful thing about our relationship is that we’re sisters at ♥. Although I may not be there to guide her physically, mentally, and emotionally ; I am there with her spiritually. I may not be the big sister she’s always wanted & have done the sisterly things we’ve been dying to do together, I am her support when she needs it. I’m not the sister to tell her how she should live her life, or the person to show her what she should do or how to be. I guess I’ve learned that people will grow to be what they want to be, especially in this generation. I cannot control the activities, attitudes, and abilities of others ; everything is trial-and-error and whatever consequences one comes upon is their business. If they need my help, I am open arms. Although I was a tomboy when younger, who knew I would sprout to be where I am today? I wear makeup. lol hahaha ! And I’m more lady-like than ever before. — * I remember one night I was so frustrated about life that I decided on writing a book for my sis but I guess this book is here in my blog for her instead. lol An insight to scare her from getting married. lol haha jk. No, just some down right REAL LIFE intellect that I hope to affect her life choices ; especially about marriage & culture.
I‘m a person who is easily inspired. I’m energetic & optimistic in nature & I try not to fall into the dark side. lol. Everything & Everyone in my life inspires me to write here, to keep on doing what I gotta do in life. I hope the best for others & I hope they don’t loose faith in themselves or in life, love, etc. I guess this concludes part two of my introduction. :P Hmm, * I’m writing this out of memory ; I hope I didn’t forget anything. lol. ♥ :) !
— MADAME MOUA
(Source: ninaskyye)
